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Saturday, January 14, 2006

2:47AM - Better Late than NEVER! so shut up!

1.What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
i dunno...Research?! Live 8! Oh, and I cut my hair and went natural. I've also never had so many arguments/fall-outs/emotional reunions/in depth conversations about said instances in my life!

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I mean I always hope to become a better person...and of course, lose weight and get in shape...lol

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes...my Shantee'

4. Did anyone close to you die?
I think my cousin passed away this year. What I mean is...I think it was this year.

5. What countries did you visit?
the U.S. haha

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a mothafukkin Bachelor's Degree

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory?
=0/ days...so many. actual dates? none except my birthday and Chelle's birthday

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Learning to recognize what I want and what is right for me.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not realizing #8 sooner

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing more than the usual sinus infections, cuts and bruises

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Anything that I got for Chelle and she enjoyed

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Sheedah...she graduated with highest honors! We're so proud!

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Everyone's! lol...Realizing how ignorant, self-serving, careless and unforgiving people in this world can be.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, clothes and of course...GAS!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My trip to Norfolk...it was great fun. We had quite a bit of fun together last semester. If only it would continue...lol

16. What song/album will always remind you of 2005?
Ciara's album, Whoop that Trick from Hustle & Flow, Kelly Clarkson's album, Res' Tsunami, My Humps by BEP.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier
ii. thinner or fatter? Shut up! I don't know! Fatter?
iii. richer or poorer? Richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Having fun/downtime. I spent much of time in my bedroom...TOO MUCH WORK. Well actually I had a lot of fun crazy moments towards the beginning of the year so I guess it all balanced out in the end.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying about things that I couldn't change

20. How did you spend Christmas?
First at my mom and dad's house...then at my aunt's house in VA.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
Just deeper than I already was

23. How many one night stands in this last year?

24. What was your favorite TV program?
The L Word..and Noah's Arc became a favorite.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Ohh..i never hate

26. What was the best book you read?
Shhh...that sounds too much like school

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
M.I.A. and Leela James...you know i can never pick just one!

28. What did you want and get?

29. What did you want and not get?
a neverending wardrobe including shoes...lol

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Crash...Four Brothers...Hustle & Flow

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Went to the spa with Chelle and got an Aromatherapy Massage...went out to dinner with Sheedah and Dani...even though they were like fighting the whole time!!

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Feeling like I had more of a balance especially between work and play

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Doing whatever. Stopped wearing tennis shoes for awhile. Then as the year started to close...slightly more laid back but still glamourous! lol.

34. What kept you sane?
Chelle, my spirit

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you like the most?
Anyone who spoke out about your favorite president! lol...i dunno.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
This whole conservative-world-domination thing that the politics seems to be trying to do...focusing on all the wrong things. i.e. worrying about "keeping the sanctity of marriage" and finding "weapons of mass destruction" when things like the extreme neglect in New Orleans with Hurricane Katrina were staring some of these people in the face.

37. Who did you miss?
Well I miss certain things about a whole lot of people who I no longer communicate that often with.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
You cannot spend your life and your valuable time trying to please people and meet their expectations, regardless of who it is...and I allowed my spirituality to continue to grow which taught me a number of things about myself and how i think i relate to the world.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
"I wanna try that pill that people take
Make you believe all the things that people say
Sick of shuckin' 'round with a screwed up face
With my heels dug in trying to leave a trace "
They-Say Vision


So I have been neglecting this journal and it is not fair!

Its obviously 2006 and nothing has changed too drastically in my life. I'm starting my last semester of college on Tuesday! Finishing this whole thing is quite enticing. However, then of course you are expected to do something else with your life. I don't understand why I can't just be a professional bum.

I am still here. Chelle is still here. Philadelphia is still what it is! We celebrated 3 years on Tuesday (yay!) with some Italian Bistro, among other things. We also had a great weekend last week, which included Ishkabibbles, South Street, the movies (Wolf Creek...boooooo!), GameWorks, chillin with Sheedah and Alex, going to a small party and then Libations...which, suprisingly did not make me want to slit somebody's throat, perhaps even my own. haha. Oh and thanks to Sheedah, I have uncovered that I like to watch white lesbians dance at Sisters. haha. I don't know if it's unfortunate or fortunate that I didn't happen to see any mullets. all business in the front and a party in the back.
So anyway, we plan on having another wonderful weekend starting tomorrow.

I am hungry (I want cookies) and I wish that I was sleepy. And yes, I'm up AT HOME at 1 o'clock on a Friday night. So what! I like it like that! I was supposed to be working on my applications of course...but I didn't get very far now did I? Well, I have tomorrow and Sunday mornings. I work best in the mornings. I think?

You are a slut.

Ok that was random but I just felt like saying it! Goooooodnight!

Current mood: cheerful

Saturday, October 1, 2005


So I finally took the LSAT and I didn't die!!!!!!!!!! yay!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005


You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth.
While you may not be a total hippie...
You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around.

You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure.
However, you do put some thought behind all your actions.
Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Monday, August 1, 2005


my goodness i need to update...i suck

Current mood: sleepy

Wednesday, July 13, 2005


i promise...a real update soon!

You Are 29 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Saturday, July 2, 2005


just came home from live 8. awwww it was so great. it was hot as shit and i almost passed out but thats ok! i didn't realize how many people were really there until i saw ben franklin parkway on MTV. i wasn't too far from the stage, which i also didn't realize until i saw where we were standing on tv. sure we could see the stage but it seemed so close but yet so far. LoL. and linkin park and jay-z were definitely the highlight of the show. omg there were so many people there. it was so crazy. the fire trucks came and were spraying their hoses from the air...it felt great!! these people were out there losin their damn minds but nobody got too rowdy. i was actually surprised. except those girls that slumped the shyt out of that poor asian girl. but oh well...

even though its not like any money or anything is going to actually go to Africa to help those starving, dying, and living that hard life.....

Saturday, May 21, 2005


i'm hungry and chelle is playing x-box....grrrrr...i wish i had video game playing talent.

so i have no idea what i want to do with my life so i suck.

i really don't feel like saying anything of importance right now so i won't...but i will later....

Current mood: hungry

Saturday, May 14, 2005

4:36PM - almost perfect

American Cities That Best Fit You:

70% Atlanta

70% Honolulu

60% Las Vegas

60% Los Angeles

60% Washington, DC

Which American Cities Best Fit You?


welcome to the family juicy couture!!! we love you =0)

Sunday, May 1, 2005


i HEART the L Word. DYKES ON BIKES! LMAO. Let's go to Cali baby!

the fat people upstairs suck ass!

Friday, April 29, 2005


omg my mouth hurts so bad. my gums are swollen, there are too many damn teeth in my mouth and its so sore. this sucks horribly. and the dental surgeon is only there on tuesdays so thats even better!

i bought this homeless man a meal today. i always see him standing around, and sometimes he's looking through the trash and i hate it that people have to do that. and sometimes i'll be carrying some food with me but i haven't eaten anything and so i just take it up with me. but then half the time, i can't even finish it so that makes me feel even worse. so today i decided to buy him lunch. just asked him if he ate hot dogs cuz there was a hot dog stand nearby. first he hesitated then he shook his head yeah, and then said just with mustard (LMAO). so i said, you want something to drink too? he said, "some coffee...cream and sugar" Homeless ppl are so gangsta...you would think people who eat out of trash cans would take anything available. but i guess if you have the chance to actually choose what u want to eat, then you want to take advantage of the opportunity. makes sense. i guess beggars CAN be choosers. so i gave it to him and he said, thank you verrry much. and i said...sure, ur welcome! so that was great. if i can remember and afford it, i'll bring a couple extra dollars with me sometimes for him or something. he's nice. maybe he can be my new philly friend. lOl.

in other news...getting a new roommate?? sounds fun. poor B. i hope she's really got somewhere to stay and she'll be ok. change is always interesting. someone new to bother...hehehe...get on the good foot and start packin! LMAO.

Current mood: good

Thursday, April 28, 2005

8:12PM - thanks evisu

10 Bands you've seen play live

10. MC Hammer..hahaha
9. Jodeci
8. Boys II Men
7. Erykah Badu
6. Dru Hill
5. Nelly and the St Lunatics
4. Fabolous, Big Tymers, Amerie
3. Alicia Keys
2. Missy, Tamia
1. Beyonce

9 People you're talking to online


8 Last things you ate

8. French Fries
7. Chicken Nuggets
6. Spicy Shrimp Rolls
5. Vienna Cremes
4. Strawberry Banana Yogurt
3. Whole Wheat Bagel w/ vegetable cream cheese
2. Bourboun Chicken with Fried Rice
1. Strawberry Milkshake

7 Things you're looking forward to

7. The end of the semester
6. Summertime
5. A Vacation
4. Going to Law School, specifically, graduating!
3. Better Days
2. The birth of my "godbaby"

6 Last voicemails received

6. Mommy
5. Dareese
4. Courtney
3. Seanna
2. Chelle
1. Mommy

5 Items of clothing you're wearing now

5. Turquoise Camisole
4. Brown Wrap Shirt
3. Blue Jeans
2. Turquoise and Brown Flowery Shoes
1. Turquoise Earrings

4 Countries/states visited outside your own

4. Maryland
3. Delaware
2. Arizona
1. Florida

3 Favorite alcoholic drinks

3. Parrot Bay
2. Cosmopolitans
1. Apple Martinis

2 People you can always rely on

2. Chelle
1. My Mommy

1 Wish

1. To be happy for the rest of my liffeeeeeee

Wednesday, April 27, 2005


doing my paperwork...shhh...don't tell anyone i'm on livejournal. haha.

i had a purpose of comin on here but i forgot it already. dammit.

seanna came up here/down here yesterday. LoL. such a funny broad! awww!! bought myself into a little hole on south street. i think i'm gonna go return some stuff...even though i don't even know where some of the money even went. and I SWEAR! if i see Floetry one more time...LMAO. but i always see one but not the other but this time i saw them both in agent! they looked great, cuz i guess i'm used to seeing them skinny now LoL. they probably think i'm stalking them except that they wouldn't know from a pile of dirt! haha. but I think they are stalking ME. its possible you know....

semester's almost over. so near yet so far....

Current mood: working

Wednesday, April 20, 2005


Romeo and Juliet is on...this is great. Yes, I am up doing nothing right now. LoL. well I'm actually trying to work on this paper, cuz then I think I'll go to the library and then to the gym for like 2 hours because I didn't go yesterday. So the semester's almost over...in about 2 weeks, I'll be a senior...yay! except not really "yay", because I have to sign for an LSAT course. Who told me I wanted to go to law school anyway?! my god! I feel like everyone is in "the dawn of the dead" and just walkin around going through the motions to get by. cuz we're all so damn busy and so frustrated with life! so therefore, i can't wait until the summer, not that it'll get that much better cuz I'll be working and going to school just like i am now. lol. why must i be so negative?!

yesterday i found our fat upstairs neighbor's keys on the ground outside. they were "kia" keys so I figured they were hers. I should have just kept em and stolen the car but then just parked it in the same parking lot everyday so she'd be like "how did my car get here?!" haha...j/k. i'm a nice person so i went upstairs and asked her if she had lost her keys and apparently she had. so good deed done.

yesterday was spring fling. people getting drunk in the middle of the day always amuses me. also, i had a nice weekend at home. well 2 days...got a chance to hang out with my mommy a bit, went to the club...which was cool but it just wasn't the same, but what can you do?! ah well...

i'll be going back again this weekend for the baby shower. can't wait!

ouch..i just cracked all the bones in my back.

i need some new clothes for my summer wardrobe along with a new body to put it in. LoL. i think i'll get to my work now and make an actual meaningful update later. we shall see...

Current mood: blah

Tuesday, April 12, 2005


life officially sucks.

there you go jessica. there's your update.

Current mood: fed up

Sunday, April 10, 2005


. Slept in your bed: can't remember...LoL!...Chelle!
. Saw you cry: Chelle
. Made you cry: Life
. Spent the night at your house: The people that live with me?
. You shared a drink with: Jessicaaaa
. You went to the movies with: oh god...umm...Courtney
. You went to the mall with: Chelle...go Cherry Hill!
. Yelled at you: hmm Chelle
. Sent you an e-mail: don't know!
. Said they were going to kill you: probably Jessica...

. Said "I love you" and meant it? always
. Been to New York? yuuppp....thanickster I'm due for a trip!
. Been to Florida? yes..I want to be there now
. California? yes...or here...LoL
. Hawaii? YES! I just said that!
. Mexico? haha...no
. China? NO!
. Canada? nope...
. Danced naked? All the time! LoL
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? Yup. I'm psychic
. Wish you were the opposite sex? When my period comes...if it comes..
. Had an imaginary friend? Yes
. Red or blue? Blue
. Spring or fall? Spring! like now! even though i love all seasons..
. Santa or Rudolph? Santa Clause cuz he's fat like me
. Math or English? oh god! English!
. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? Wash my hair
. What was the last food you ate? some good ass Snow Crab Legs
. How many buddies are on? dunno
. Last movie you saw? the one i'm watching now i guess...A Time for Dancing
. Last noise you heard? the movie and my typing
. Last time you went out of the state: LoL...2 weeks ago..DIRTY JERZ
. Things you like in a potential partner: funny. lovable. sexay!
. Do you have a crush on someone? maybe *wink and nod*
. Do they know? of coure!
. What's their name? Doctor Chocolate
. What do you think of ouija boards? Let's not play like that
. What book are you reading now? African American Studies Reader by Norment
. What's on your mouse pad? No such thing
. Favourite board game? Candyland
. Favourite magazine? Essence??
. Worst feeling in the world? hopelessness
. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? I'm SLEEPY
. How many rings before you answer? Dos
. Future daughter's name? Rachelle, Sunite
. Future son's name? Malachi?
. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate!!
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? POODA BEAR...lOl
. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? Traveling Photographer or Choreographer
. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? righty
. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? Yes
. Hair Colour: Black/Dark Brown
. Eye Colour: same thing
. Height Currently: 5.4 and no one can tell me different
. Glasses/contacts: 20/20 vision bitch!
. Current Age: 20
. Siblings: zero!
. Siblings Age: n/a
. Location: Philly
. College Plans: Graduate next year..Get my Bachelors, maybe 2 of em
. Any Piercings: Ears, tragus
. Best Friends: Nicole, Courtney, Shantee' and Shani
. Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Significant Other: Yes
. Current Crush: My baby
. Hobbies: doing homework...LoL
. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: Honda Civic
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: Alwaysssssss Late
. Do You Have A Job: Clerk/Receptionist at a busy ass Immigration Firm
. Do You Like Being Around People: Sometimes

. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Nope
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: Nope, well does my father count?
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: Nope
. Are You Lonely Right Now: well Chelle JUST woke up, lets see
. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: Yea, well i'll just have to relocate...LoL
. Do You Want To Get Married: Yes
. Do You Want Kids: Yes 3

. Room In house: Bedroom
. Type of music: Anything with Soul
. Song: ? Always be my Baby by Mariah Carey...LMAO
. Memory: I have so many....
. Day Of The Week: Saturdays
. Perfume Or Cologne: Escada Magnetism
. Flower: orchids, because Courtney likes them...LoL
. Season: Summer Summer Summertime
. Location for dates: ANYWHERE OUTSIDE

. Cried: Yes i cried cuz chelle's butt smells like rotten goo goos....nut really? NO
. Bought Something: Food and gas
. Gotten Sick: No
. Sang: YES! you all love it!
. Said I Love You: Yes
. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: No
. Met Someone New: Not really, no one important...LoL
. Moved On: Sure
. Talked To Someone: I would hope so..i'm not a hermit! LoL
. Had A Serious Talk: Yes...too damn many
. Missed Someone: Yes..my Mommy!
. Hugged Someone: Yes
. Kissed Someone: Yes...2 many to count...J/K!!
. Fought With Your Parents: No...my mom's been silly and i don't know if my dad still lives in America
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: George Michael..sike!!! NO!
. Had a lot of sleep: Yea i need my sleep
. Wanted This Survey To Be Over: Yes i'm hungry and i think i'm bout 2 get beat...LMAO

Current mood: hungry


ya see...

when i recognize negative energy around me, I attempt to free myself from it. There is no need to subject myself to such negativity...I have been "spiritually warned" about such things. Therefore, I choose not to deal with it...which is where some faults may began to emerge because I just don't want to deal with bad stuff even if it is reality. But the good part is when I can remain positive even when things aren't going so well, and I can choose to avoid bad situations that will only weigh down my soul. So there.

In other news, I saw this good movie yesterday called The Quiet American. It was rather entertaining. It was a film about Vietnam...well not really, cuz of course they made it about some random white men in Vietnam but I still liked it. I think it was telling some type of introduction to the Vietnam war. And no it wasn't on the Sundance Channel! Not ALL the movies I watch in life are from there...LoL

I miss dancing.

I feel like watching Roswell.

Speaking of which, I feel the need to go somewhere hot and sunny. Maybe because I just finished watching 50 First Dates and it was in Hawaii. Which I'm thinking will be my vacation destination for graduation! Hopefully...or unless I change my mind. I can't believe I'll be out of college in a year...where did time go? I can't take it! And I did go to my grad review on Thursday. It was pretty pointless because I already knew what I would need to take. But whatever...just had to make sure. Oh and someone should really remind me to take that library skills.

I've been going to the gym most mornings and I think I've lost an inch or two in my waist. And of course my lower half..the last part of me to gain weight and the first to go. I mean my breasts and gut have been here forever...haven't they realized that they've outlived their stay?! So I guess I'll just keep at it and actually eat even better than I attempt to do now.

Lynn Whitfield looks great (again) in this movie I'm watching. She's supposed to be a dance teacher...What happened to her in Cheetah Girls (LoL) and Head of State? She looked awful. Speaking of that movie and dance, my former dance teacher was in Head of State. That was funny...

I wanna cry I'm so bored. I need to regain my peace of mind.

Current mood: anxious

Thursday, March 31, 2005


Terry Schiavo Dies at 41


I have to admit, I was still rooting for the woman...regardless of what political party I identify with or her race.

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


ok i'm in the comp lab supposed to be in class...i'm going i promise! but i just had to say that i'm in here and someone is humming that kill bill tune...u know "doo doo do do doooo..doo doo do do dooo...do do do do do doooooo...
k bye.

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